- (Past events)
Silence loves me…
Sometimes silence is much more than just the absence of sound. Sometimes silence has it’s own life, a being, a spirit, a place to be. A beloved. Sometimes you just don’t talk – but sometimes silence starts talking back to you. It speaks from your heart, tells you who you really are, beyond all the words, beyond all the thoughts, beyond all your ideas about what to do in this life – it feels like it reminds you that you are much more than you think. You are not ever what you think you are.
Before I went to silent retreat with Natha Yoga Center on Stevns Klint, I was wondering what I would experience. If I would reach exciting states, if I would have a lot to tell afterwards, if it would change me. If I would get scared when I met the silence. When I met myself – the one that I really am.
My body reacted with symptoms of illness before the camp, and I was a little nervous – but also looking forward, I felt like I was going to meet a love done after a long time, after having missed him for a long time. I felt I would start a love relation with my own soul, after having been very focused on other people’s thoughts and opinions for my whole life, and on what to do to be good enough. I felt I would finally meet my own heart – but I didn’t realise how radical the consequences would be.
The frame for the retreat was that we were in mauna, where you don’t speak or communicate, during the camp, and that we had several hours of meditation every day, and tried to be as introvert as possible. That we would do something else than we usually do. We were in Stevns Naturcenter, which is placed in the most beautiful nature, with the sea almost just outside the door, and with tall trees, lots of birds, endless skies. The nights were blessed with stars and beauty. And the days were filled with the sound of the rain, the fragrance of the wet trees, and the longing for the sea. We were a lot of people there, but the point was to give us a possibility that elsewhere we would have to go to a cave in the Himalayas to find – that we could live so introvert and be so quiet inside that we could focus on our true nature.
In the first week, we worked on understanding who we are NOT – that we are not the mind, with it´s thoughts and feelings, but also that we are not the body. Vi had fantastic lectures where we heard how some of the great spiritual masters have travelled from an ordinary life to a life in Light – an enlightened life. We meditated on the words and teachings, and in this way their experiences built a foundation in us, and settled in us.
Before the camp, I was concerned if I could take it – if I would meet a lot of inner ghosts, that would scare me, or if I would suddenly begin talking or do other unconscious actions that would ruin the retreat for me. I was also afraid to produce beautiful experiences or inner images that would be more in the category ’astral dreams’ than real experiences of something more profound, something higher than the astral realm. I was afraid to stay in a svadhisthana-spirituality (Svadhisthana is the energy center in our being, that is connected to the erotic and creative energies, and to desire and the search for pleasure), where I would have pleasant experiences, that would satisfy my ego very much – but where I wouldn’t actually open towards God.
In the first days, I was very very blissful – I was happy to put all my social insecurities aside and to be allowed just to be in my own world, and in the night time I would lie in my bed and look at the stars in the sky and just feel… happy. And we learned how to de-identify regarding to all the things, we are not – and I understood, it was so obvious to me that I have never seen reality, only my own images of it, and these images come from the one I think I am. And who is strongly attached to prejudices, judging others and myself, a closed heart, lack of surrender, and always preoccupied with thoughts of either the future or the past. I was so ecstatic to see all this! It felt like being an innocent child, that can sit by the feet of God, and just be the one I am – and in full confidence and with trust in the heart give it all to Him, without any thoughts if He can and will help me – because He is omnipotent and He is Love! I felt no desire to keep anything to myself, hide anything – I just wanted to surrender it all to Him.
We learned some fantastic techniques to see how we identify with what we are not – and I was just so happy to see that I was not and am not all the nonsense, that haunts my mind.
We also learned about some of the cosmic powers, Mahavidya (In traditional tantrism, it is understood that God manifests through ten aspects, symbolized as ten goddesses, and they are called Mahavidya or the ten cosmic powers) and their special gifts of grace to the ones seeking Atman – the ones seeking the revelation of Reality. It was a true journey in joy and mystery, and I felt so blessed.
I also felt great irritation and anger – the slightest noise or disturbance from the others could make me extremely irritated and angry – and I watched my resonance to see if it would then dissolve. And I was angry with myself for not ’just’ opening my heart – and I saw how it became more and more difficult for me to surrender to the present moment. At the same time I was very happy to see this anger – because I learned that it cannot harm me, it cannot touch my soul, or Atman. I could see that the anger came from my mind, but also that no matter how much place it took on my inner ’screen’, I was still united with endless love. That was tremendously healing for me – because normally I run away from the feelings, I don’t like, for instance anger, jealousy or envy – but at the same time, I run away from all the people or situations, that could trigger these emotions, and trigger the risk to feel them, and then I lose so much. I shut off for love. And i learned that exactly the feelings, I find the most difficult to live with, can be the most wonderful and unexpected gate to unconditional love, to unity with all human beings, and to an open heart.
In the next part of the retreat it was time to go deeper in the meditations. I was very sleepy and tired, I was not able to sleep much at night, 3 -4 hours, and some of the meditations I just spent staying awake. But at the same time I had a feeling that now I had consecrated the meditations and received an answer, then also this was integrated and a part of the divine plan – and now, after the camp, I understand that I had to fully let go of my desire for spiritual experiences, so that God could hold me in His hands.
I understand that I had to come down on my knees and feel totally lost in order for Him to be allowed to have access to my being.
And sometimes in the meditations I surrendered so much, let so much go of all my ideas of what was supposed to happen now, and I just welcomed everything, totally relaxed – that I became witness, became heart, became Mother, became love, became Present Moment, became the one I really am.
There were states with no desires or identification with the mind, there were states of eternity and unity with All, there were states of deep peace – not as feelings, but as observations.
And I experienced that a lot of new nuances were available – it was as if the silence made it possible to perceive much more subtle nuances in reality – as if eternity and unity is hidden between all the phenomena, I know from my senses and perceptions.
I had wonderful moments with Grieg, our spiritual guide. One of the things that surprised me the most was experiencing how I stopped focusing on his words, his teachings, his physical appearance – and was allowed to see him as the one, he has always been and will always be. And I remembered the first time I came to the school for tantra class, and saw his picture, and was told that he was the one who had founded the school – and I kneeled before the picture and thanked him for giving me the possibility to go to this school and learn so many wonderful things. I didn’t know anything about what else he is at that time – I just felt a deep gratitude. In these moments in the camp where I experienced him beyond all appearances, beyond body, age, teaching, expression, I felt that he had found me in the middle of the ocean of people, and called me, and led me to this moment – and I knew that since he had loved me forever, then also I was eternal. And i knew that also I will reach enlightenment in the right moment, because I am in his hands and love – it can only turn out for the best! I felt so blessed, loved and full of gratitude – and full of trust. And that it is fantastic that I am exactly where I am now – for this is my starting point for my further journey.
Sometimes I experienced how everything I think I know, dissolved in front of me – and I had moments where I said goodbye to everything, I thought I knew, everything, that I thought that I loved. I said goodbye to parents, sister and brother, family, friends, ambitions, talents, dreams, attachments, pains, identifications, self-hatred – and there were moments of deep loneliness, because nothing was as I had always thought it was. But these moments transformed into deep bliss, when I saw that the deep pains that I have always carried, and thought I could never release – dissolved in front of me. I realised that the confirmation, I have always wanted from others, was in fact impossible to have – because other people don’t exist, I only see my image of them. The person, I see as X, is not X – I only see my image of him. I realised that when I am angry or jealous, it comes from things in my own mind, because I do not see reality – and therefore there is no reason to feel bad about it. I felt so many times that I chose to feel bad about things that are not real – because since I was never born and will never die, and since I never saw reality, but live in a hall of mirrors – than the state of Witness is the only true place to be. And that it is unrealistic to feel bad about anything – because the things I feel bad about, never happened, and they are not happening now either, and they will never happen.
The present moment is always sufficient and abundant and ecstatic – it contains all.
There was a special moment that I like to return to now afterwards, with hope and longing. I realised during the camps that I long so much for loving in perfect freedom and without conditions, like God – but also that I fear it deeply. Because if I didn’t, obviously I would already love in that way. But at one point I had a very strong experience of having a glimpse of how it will be to have a totally open heart – and how I through empathy would be able to heal others with no boundaries, let go of my own low resonances and set others free – and how I would be able to release their hearts. This moment is till very clear to me, as something I desire very much and deep in my being.
To be able to let go of the fear to love unconditionally, so I can reach that state of empathy.
When the retreat ended, I wanted to get home fast – I didn’t want to start talking to the other participants about our experiences, because I didn’t want my ego to cut this silence into small appropriate pieces, that might make me happy, but that would also be so interpreted by the ego that I would not be able to transform. I wanted to contain all the things I had learned inside, and not ejaculate it. And I wanted more silence. So I left in a hurry – but happy.
In these days after the camp, I have felt a great longing for meditating, and meditating for long periods, and for getting to know my heart even more, and getting to know it so well, that it will be a gate to the one I really am.
I have also felt that is is immensely much easier for me to center in the heart – and release any desire to center anywhere else. I feel a lot more self-confidence – I guess it did my Manipura (the energycenter or chakra connected to will power, self confidence and the ability to transform your life) well to show up for all the meditations, no matter if I was tired or ill. Anyway it has become easier for me to say what I see, and say what I think.
And I have a strong feeling that I am facing big changes in my life. My mind has no plans, but I can feel that my heart is strong and that it leads me – and I don’t really think about where it is going, I fully trust it will take me to the best position for both my and the world outside. Karma yoga (which is when you offer the karmic fruits of your actions, and your actions, to God, with love) has turned into a true joy for me, and even though my mind creates stress when I see how much I am supposed to do, then I also feel full confidence in my heart, and I see that time is shaping so I manage to overcome it all in magical ways, and that I have strength to do it. It is truly amazing to see – love in action.
I am deeply grateful for the retreat – I am so grateful for having shared those days with wonderful people, and many times during the meditations I saw all the beautiful souls that surrounded me with light, and I saw the angels supporting us, surrounding us with love and kindness. I feel immensely grateful to Grieg, and I love to feel him as the other half of my heart. I am deeply grateful for the possibility to love him so much more – I could not have received any better presents for Christmas. I also feel deep gratitude towards Natha Yoga Center – and I am still really amazed that it is possible for find so profound, transforming and authentic teaching in the middle of my Januarylife in Denmark – you know, I am just an ordinary human being. That it is possible for me to find teaching that leads me to the depths of my heart and to see glimpses of the Source – reality.
Silence became my Beloved during the retreat. I have always dreamt of obtaining inner peace – as long as I didn’t have to release my attachments, and if i could be allowed to be the same, if I could be allowed to ’sleep at the steering wheel’ in my life. I dreamt that God would make it so that it didn’t hurt that I was ignorant. But silence became my Beloved during the retreat – the silence, the neutral point within – and I feel I am flirting with life, with reality, and I see how the layers of reality and illusion mix, and I get seduced and fall in love with this game – also when it hurts. I take the response, but I don’t take it so personal.
I know I was never born and that I will never die – I don’t know this because somebody told me, but because I found it in my heart. By releasing all the things, I weren’t, and releasing all the things I wanted to be – and instead I was just a little fool, who was sitting trying to stay awake in meditation – but at the same time, I was One with the Supreme – in a magical way.
I look so much forward for meditating again! And for every moment of yoga, every moment of giving myself to others, every moment of what life is really about.
And every moment of resistance – for that is exactly where I meet the one, that I am not – and then the One, that Is forever, can be revealed.
By Gregorian Bivolaru
Love is one of the fundamental realities of God. By discovering love, we discover the existence of God. Love is Its essential "substance". The infinite energy of love comes from God and creates everything that is good, divine, harmonious, true, ecstatic. All the wonderful manifestations contain in themselves the mysterious and deeply unifying energy of love. When love is in all of us, then we are all in God. The ineffable energy of love is the endless and all-powerful source of harmonious life that manifests as happiness, joy, compassion, goodness and ecstasy. Everything that is good, beautiful and true exists through the mysterious energy of love. And nothing that is truly sublime can exist and maintain itself without the energy of love.
Everything that is uplifting, God-like and enchanting contains this mysterious energy of love. The energy of love is endless and eternal and both the source and the ultimate purpose of all beings that aspire for God. The human being that is often nourished on love, evolves much faster toward perfection, enlightenment and union with God.
The human being that gives up love (due to egoism and stupidity) separates itself from one of the essential energies of God and thus takes the road toward dispersion and self-destruction since then it loses its coherence and cohesion.
Love and Freedom are inseparable, since without Freedom we cannot talk about love, but about constraint.
Love is an essential criterion and at the same time the quickest method of harmonious development of the human being. If there is great love, the Total Reality of God is reflected in the Microcosm of our being.
Whoever doesn't love at all must not be surprised that he will not be loved at all.
Whoever loves little, little will he be loved.
Whoever loves a lot, a lot will he be loved.
Whoever loves endlessly, without end will he be loved.
If you yearn to be loved much, you must remember that for this you must love much in the first place.
Sooner or later you will be offered the love that you deserve, measured on the same scale as the love that you have given. Even if somebody overwhelms you with a great love, you will not be able to receive it unless you truly deserve it. When you are truly prepared to receive endless love that is deep, overwhelming and sublime, then a person will come into your life who is able to offer this deep, overwhelming and sublime love.
If you love an ideal archetype with intensity, deeply and overwhelmingly. And if you have no lover for the time being that can return this love. In a wonderful way you are actually preparing yourself (consciously or not) for the moment when you will encounter a person that will give you the love for which you did everything to deserve.
Let's not forget that love without a solid foundation of truth is like a chaotic water flow in a river without banks.
Great love and a perfect transfiguration makes our lover ever more beautiful.
When you love enough, you discover first of all what is beautiful and wonderful in the person you love. In front of the one who loves with passion beauty unveils itself and grows through continuous transfiguration. Each human being falls in love with a person that complements and fulfill him / her. The human being that we love passionately is our beauty for us. For anyone who lacks spiritual intuition, a beautiful face and a beautiful body can hide an evil soul.
Transfiguration shows us that beauty is the child of love.
A heart that is constantly in love with everything that is beautiful, true and good, will never grow old. Beauty alone without grace, lacks attractiveness. Beauty combined with grace gives charm and makes the person almost irresistible. Beauty without goodness and intelligence is like flat beer that was opened the night before. Beautiful women are seldom wise.
Beauty lasts until ugliness starts to set in, but wisdom (once attained) lasts forever. A person that is only beautiful is good to look at, but with a person that has wisdom is easy to live, since this person can help you to awaken from ignorance and become wise and happy.
Youth has a beautiful face and body, but wisdom makes the mind and soul beautiful. A charming woman with a beautiful body is a mute recommendation of Mother Nature.
Beautiful persons must be very lucid and attentive since arrogance is easily awaken when you are beautiful, and then vanity replaces beauty.
Give up wickedness, egoism, envy, jealousy, vanity, impatience, hate, lack of tolerance, stupidity. Don't forget that when love becomes infinite, the impossible becomes easily feasible. Don't forget that, as the Romanian sculptor Brancusi said, "When we stop being like a child, we are already dead". This is why you should awaken and amplify the child within. In this way you will become and stay forever young. Being all the time like a child and staying young is a wonderful gift that every one of us can receive.
Samuel Ullman wrote in "Youth": "Youth is not a time of life, it is a state of mind" (in the Yogic language, a resonance with the beneficial subtle energies of youth). He also wrote:
"Youth means a temperamental predominance of courage over timidity, of the appetite for adventure over a life of ease."
"You do not become old just because you lived a certain number of years. You become old because you turned away from your love and your high ideal. Years wrinkle your skin. Giving up your high ideal wrinkles your soul.
Petty preoccupations, doubt, suspicion, fear and desperation are our insidious enemies that slowly make us round-shouldered and transform us into dust even before we die.
Young is that person who loves always and being very curious is continuously amazed and discovers many mysteries where other people don't see anything out of the ordinary. This person always asks questions, such as 'Why?', 'What happens next?', etc. Such a person determines the events of his life through his creative thinking and always finds new happiness in the divine play of life.
You are as young as your love and faith.
You are as old as your isolation and doubt.
You are as young as the greatness of your self-confidence and hopes.
You are as old as your discouragement.
You will always stay young as long as you will be full of love and goodwill and open towards everything that is beautiful, good, true, great and divine. Receptive to the voice of love, to the people around you, to the infinite and to God.
If, in spite of all, your heart will be bitten by pessimism one day and tormented by cynicism because you did not heed this advice, may the good Lord have mercy upon your old and rigid heart!"
In the New Testament, St. Paul says the following about love (Corinthians 13): "Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, and I have not love, I am as sounding as brass or a tingling cymbal. And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge - and though I have all faith so that I could move mountains, and I have not love, I am nothing. And though I bestow my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, and have no love, it profiteth me nothing. Love suffereth long and is kind. Love envieth not. Love vaunteth not itself, is not puffed up. Love doth not behave itself unseemly, seeketh not her own fulfillment, is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil, rejoiceth not in iniquity but rejoiceth in truth. Love beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things. Love never faileth: but whether there be prophecies, they shall end. Whether there be tongues, they shall cease. Whether there be knowledge, it shall vanish away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part. But when that which is perfect cometh, then that which is in part shall be done away. When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child. But when I became a man, I put away children things. For now we see through a glass, darkly - but then face to face. Now I know in part - but then I shall know even as also I am known. And now there are these three left: Faith, Hope and Love. But the greatest of them is Love."
- (Past events)
By Vasile Szavo, Yoga and Tantra student
“The ego is the freedom of the mind to choose anything else than GOD”
- one of Mihai Stoian’s thoughts shared with us in this silent retreat.
I believe that only the Divine Grace was the one guiding me and making possible for me the Iceland Silent Retreat in January – February 2011.
First there was the state of longing for God after the Hiatus spiral in August in Costinesti, 2010, then, in the November Archangel’s Week, the mysterious benefic ‘obsession’ for the meditation music with Uriel Archangel and then, finally, my silent, but intensive request to God to participate in this retreat… and when I gave up on it – since it was impossible for me to imagine how could I get the money for affording this experience – and confessed this to my beloved, a miracle happened and it suddenly became possible that I, myself …could also be there… in my first silent retreat for revealing the divine essence, the immortal Self ATMAN. Indeed, if I were to follow what my mind was telling me I never have had this chance, but a simple inner request from the heart was triggering what I consider a true miracle for me.
Considering the spiritual results I have personally experienced in this retreat, I have to admit that this spiritual retreat was relatively easy: already the trip itself felt like a light vacation, my first breaths on the Icelandic shore in a state of an adolescent’s joy and happiness, the funny moments in the bus with the familiar and new faces, Mihai’s lucid enthusiasm for the Icelandic scenery, the electronic toy helicopter I took care of on the way, the taste of the rich in minerals water and of the ashram’s bread and soup and the entire atmosphere of the Icelandic yoga school reawakened something very pure and joyful inside, which reminded me of the times I was 12 and had just discovered with full enthusiasm Chopin, buying tape after tape with his crystalline music.
Neither the quite strict program of 6.5 hours meditation, nor the rule of total silence were too difficult for me and the experiences I’ve had in the third day and in the last day of the retreat have showed me very clearly that it is possible… what E.Tolle, Maharishi, Yogananda or Poonja described in their books are attainable and easier to attain then I thought, and the focus on this high goal is giving by far much more joy and ecstasy than anything else the world can give. I just couldn’t believe how - in my ten years of practicing in this yoga school - I tried almost all the types of Yoga,… except for this one… all those stories about how difficult these meditations were, now they are, in my vision, just bedtime stories for kids …
“After the Iceland Silent Retreat a very curious and cunning reporter approached a participant in the camp, asking him the first question: ‘who am I talking to?’; the student’s amazed gaze was pondering for a moment on a spot somehow behind the reporter’s microphone, then the calm answer came with the ingenuity of a revelation: ‘to me’ ”- the second spiritual joke inspired to Mihai towards the end of the camp.
The famous question ‘who am I?’ from Ramana Maharishi’s self-inquiry technique bears almost no meaning for the reader of his books unless doubled by the practice of centering in the heart. The seven steps technique in which we were gradually introduced, during the meditation program, had on me the effects of several revelations…first of all because my ideas about the heart and the soul were so abstract and far from my personal experience. From the short lectures we were presented I understood that essentially the concept of the heart as the center of everything that exists is a genuinely practical concept: I remember many years ago in my room I had a red old armchair in which I took a break sometimes, simply following a need of my being to stop for a moment in the middle of the very agitated emotional life I had in that period. There was one time, I clearly recall, when I simply felt a state of bliss – experienced as profound peace – just by stopping and relaxing with the eyes closed sitting on this armchair… Indeed, this experience of mine was an authentic centering in the heart which I did without knowing anything at that time about yoga. So, it became clear for me that I’ve already had some special moments in my life when the centering in the heart was there for short moments, but to find a simple practical method to recall and have that state at will is almost like dreaming about the Aladdin’s wonderful lamp from the One Thousand and One Nights fairy tale… still, and this was my first extraordinary revelation, with the right method, the adequate conditions created and a perseverant practice, the state of being in the heart can be attained now, by almost anyone who truly aspires to it.
Practically, the crystal clear exposure of the seven steps meditation technique had the role of protecting me from various traps, but even in these privileged conditions, the very clear guidance and the unison of aspiration with the fellow spiritual aspirants in this retreat, I still had to pass through my own tests until getting the first results.
The room bathed in blue light: “…the heart is the king … it is the secret mirror of God inside of us …it makes possible that we can really have what we have and to become what we really are…beginning with the awakened heart we can start evolving and we can reach true spiritual accomplishments…” - from the theory in the retreat
It is still just sterile theory to talk about the heart and is like in one of the short movies with Poonja we watched in the retreat, about the one who talks and doesn’t know, while the one who knows, doesn’t talk … still the very reality of the tests I had, suggests that also the seconds of awareness of my individual heart - I’ve had in the camp - were nonetheless authentic. The blockages in the neck area, unblocked after the first two days, the difficulties with finding the relaxed meditation posture and the triggered physical pain until finding it, the fights with the fluctuations of my mind during the meditations and the kind of an incapacity to believe and pessimism about my capacity to be in the heart, as if forever imprisoned in the mind’s schemes, are some of the shades imprinted in the room where I found rest between meditations and re-read Bhairavastava (the Kashmir Shivaism’s masterpiece poem about being in the heart with the divine) with more and more thirst. From my window I could see young fir trees and, in the evenings, after the blue light bathed the table and the bed, the vision of the warm-houses awakened in me the memory of Roerich’s paintings depicting in the snowy scenery realm of Shambala.
Solheimar, under the snow in the fifth day of the retreat was the magical place I had a walk to visit the green-houses and leave in the snow storm all my melancholy about the lost moments of this life in which I was not in the heart…but far from the essential nectar of the ‘king of my being’, the spiritual heart. There, behind the glass of the green-houses I found my little tree with lively remembrance of the true experience of the man who came back from clinical death - the heart awakening essential story watched in the 2010 Costinesti summer yoga camp about the voyage to God’s heavenly realm of a man who found in a room, there, in God’s heaven the small tree representing the sum of the good deeds he did during his life time. This impressive moment of his story was the subject of my identification, while looking through the windows of the green house and choosing my own little plant…’my tree’.
And yes, in the third day I also had the grace of three seconds of centering in the heart continually and profoundly and the stunning effects are still amazing me: first of all I suddenly remembered in a new light some decisions I took not from the heart in the past, I saw the moment like from above, having a complete perspective… and as if burning that karma of ignorance about the hearts’ solutions, I found myself again in the middle of the warm flow of love which showed me the right solution; simultaneously with these clarifying recollections I felt an inner state of verticality as a renewal of all my masculine essence… reconfiguring my self-transfiguration to the highest extent and giving back to me the freshness of all my purest aspirations. What was really shockingly real and incredible was the speed of few seconds in which I found a renewed inner strength which I haven’t even slightly guessed it existed inside of me. Together with this integrating perspective and refreshed virility I also felt vaguely how is that state in which one knows everything, the past and the future, being centered in the axis of the present moment. After these astonishing states I started to gain an inner happiness which was increasing gradually until the end of the retreat culminating in the last day.
Ideal conditions for the ones aiming to the highest accomplishment on the ‘fast-lane’: NOW and HERE.
It is not any more a mere juicy spiritual saying for us (those participating in this retreat) the expression ‘here and now’. It’s became as practical this expression as the asana-s for a first year yoga student. As Mihai Stoian - our guide in this inner spiritual adventure – called this type of spiritual experience we’ve had: “the perpendicular spiritual practice”, is the one aiming straightly to the highest goal, without wandering in the almost endless stages on the horizontal plane, but taking the bold turning on the vertical axis, directly aiming towards the divine. It is ”a different quality of experience” as he puts it, and it can hardly be compared with anything else in the vast domain of possible horizontal spiritual practices. If, for instance on the tantric path one might have Tantra retreat 1 followed by a new theme, or new initiations in Tantra retreat 2 and so on until Tantra retreat ‘n’, the silent retreat for revealing the Self can only be repeated and continually remembered since it brings us back to the same divine axis within us, which is immobile, unchangeable and springing from the eternity of the very origins of the universe. These camps are analogically speaking like practicing alpinism to the highest peak on the most direct path, the shortest and most efficient side of the mountain.
Also Camelia’s perceptions about the divine entities of light guiding us from the invisible realms here in the camp were significantly highlighting that - what we’ve experienced in Solheimar this year - it was authentic and highly significant for our transformation.
Here I must admit that I’ve never imagined that this kind of retreat in the same space together with others can contain so much depth and authenticity. The rules of the camp clearly stated that we are supposed to be silent at all times and not to look to the others, but live inside of our own sphere as if we were alone in an individual retreat. For me these were relatively easy to be done by imagining that I am in God’s presence; so the only presence I have to take care of is God. And this way of acting brought good results for me…. Still, while living in the same room with my room mate some clarifications and purifications also appeared and I realized that they were not by coincidence catalyzed by my roommate’s presence: the funniest example to this effect was about his wake up alarm singing a song which was hunting me until the end of the camp; until, in the last night I had a releasing dream in which he was acting in a comedy triggering my strongest laughter in this life time …in a dream…thus any melancholic tendency was like burnt away in the fire of this brotherly communion through laughter.
A key element for remembering a special spiritual state, revealed here Mihai, is to recreate the same conditions in which that special state appeared for the first time…but what were the ideal conditions offered to us by Iceland?
The cool temperature which is excellent for meditation, the pure elements of nature specific to the subtle atmosphere of Iceland, the common aspiration of the spiritual group, and mostly and firstly the warm hearted hosting of the Icelandic yogis and here the gallery of angels taking care of us is enlarged with the volunteers who offered to organize the camp, administrate all the practical details and cook for us every day out of their immense generosity of the heart: especially Magdalena, Serafim and Natha Iceland volunteers, Adam and the others deserve all our gratefulness, since without their initiative and sacrifice these ideal conditions hadn’t been possible to be met.
The Satsang in Natha Iceland Reykjavik: protect your ‘candle light’ not only while meditating and being in a protective environment, but also while walking on the street in the springtime sunshine of the joyful states or the snow storm of the hard to control karmic events, be like those who manage this on and on in all the life situations even in the most intensive ones, the rare, spiritually liberated beings – ideas from the conclusive talk of the retreat.
For me in this spiritual retreat the difference between the astonishing third day’s glimpses of awareness on my heart’s depths and the camp’s final day personal success, is between the lucky luke’s unconscious lucky strike (the third day) and the consciously built up ability to maintain continually for a longer time the focus on the divine essence within. Now only for very few minutes and then to more minutes in a row while having continuity - breaking out of the few minutes short cycles - given by the presence of the silent witness perceived by me in the source of super human perseverance and steadiness in the focus.
The closing moments of the camp, the meditation of gratitude, sharing, the last snowy images around the pond with the colored fish, the taste of the fresh and crispy bread in the hall where smiling people are talking and joking about the weather in a detached way … and the underlying state of surrendering to God’s Will in all the details of our departure. Closing the door of the meditation building, returning the keys and looking from the left side at Solheimar – the home of the Sun, the already familiar holiday houses and the green-houses always bathed with light… the growing happiness rising like the Sun on the faces and silence accompanying the pause between two words… the fragility of our souls’ refined movements, breathing in unison with the yellow bus, crossing through the Icelandic scenery towards Reykjavik.
The Natha Iceland Yogacenter is the playground of the final stage of the inner adventure I wanted to depict.
Our loving and hospitable hosts preparing the Sunday evening Satsang with Mihai; beautifully arranged living room and yoga halls. An atmosphere of warm communication naturally starts to grow while waiting for Serafim’s intro words. All is unexpectedly unfolding and everyone’s curiosity about the Icelandic yogis and about us is fulfilled in a smart and funny way during the self-introductory round. A kind of a refined magic field of sharing is spread all around like in the heart to heart spiritual sharing of the best kind. Unexpected connections are opening new subjects from the topic of least importance of which year of yoga is one, to the silent retreat which is meeting here the Icelandic school’s students; then the questions are pointing more and more towards the now and here; from the highest essence of the national souls, the exceptional value of the meditations with the national soul to which one belongs; the Icelandic soul; Mihai’s answer to this question unveiling the exceptional creativity of the Icelandic soul in its contact with the primordial natural forces; the present-day situation of the creativity and how can it be integrated in the divine perspective; all these in a curiosity and affinity awakening manner of the great spiritual feasts in the end of a triumphant spiritual accomplishment.
The earth’s mountainous ribs are reflected in me like waves on a still lake, while gazing out of the plane’s little window and even the amazement in front of the white cloud’s stony realm is more silent in me than other times. The practice of the technique starts from the airport so that the noises don’t come so hurtfully towards me. Just the wish to be alone and meditate and the thought about the example with the ‘candle light’ - given in the retreat and representing the awakened heart towards the depths of the Divine Immortal Self ATMAN – to be taken care of in the storms of the daily life with all its unexpected turning points.
I wish to all of you to always manage to maintain the centering in the heart so profoundly that its bright light awakens completely not only your candle, but also others’ heart candle light. And I Thank to God, to Grieg, my spiritual guide, to Mihai, my spiritual teacher, Magdalena and Serafim, our caring mother and father in this retreat, the Icelandic yoga students and to all of you who participated, for your love and aspiration which altogether made possible, also for me, the very valuable spiritual experience of the 2011 silent retreat in Iceland,
- (Spiritual techniques)
Yogis initiated at Herculane share their experiences
by Monica Dascalu
At the beginning of May 2008, during the International Yoga Symposium in Herculane, Romania, it was given an exceptional initiation, which implies a method of induction of beneficial states of trance and this is a genuine world premiere.
Everyone practicing this method is granted free access to the parallel astral worlds and to a large array of surnatural phenomena. The large majority of the yogis have attended the special initiating program into the states of beneficial trance. Inner focus, attention, spiritual effervescence and enthusiasm brimming over in packed house – this is what has made the frame of this exceptional spiritual event. The success of the initiation into the beneficial states of romantic trance is backed by the countless evidence of the participants. We are attempting here a fascinating journey through the mysteries of the beneficial trance, based on the reference of the yogis who had attended the initiation at Herculane.
A highly efficient initiating method
The initiating method of beneficial trance induction is complex, but entirely natural; the gradual unfolding naturally makes it uncomplicated. Given the original feature of the initiation which secures access to new dimensions of the existence and reality, the theoretic understanding is highly important. Therefore the entire audience who wanted the initiation had to previously listen to the detailed theoretic introduction, which explains the phenomena that may occur together with the technique steps.
But for this theoretic training, it would be difficult to take good advantage of all opportunities granted by beneficial states of trance. “When I got this initiation I had quite a different understanding of the theoretic aspects, which I had the feeling I had understood quite well. The feeling that goes with the direct access to all these things is highly different than the mental understanding. Shouldn’t there be the thorough theoretic presentation, I couldn’t have fully beneficiated this initiation and but for the initiation, I would have hardly understood the theoretic presentation.”
“When I first realized this secret method during the initiation at Herculane, I had the feeling that it was quite complex and it would be utterly difficult for me to repeat it at home, on my own. To my own surprise, when I repeated it, I could joyfully see that the stages would naturally follow up in sequence and they would gradually prepare the state, so that I didn’t meet the slightest problem to do it on my own. Since the initiation at Heculane I have practiced this technique six times and I may say I already got fond of it.” (M.P)
Initiation, a key to success
In order to successfully practice such a technique, it is not enough to access information, but also to get effective initiation from a spiritual guide who he himself successfully practices this spiritual method. The initiation in the beneficial states of trance has been provided in the Symposium at Herculane by YOGA teacher Gregorian Bivolaru. But just like any other esoteric initiation, this is going to become fruitful and efficient only for those who will deepen it by means of the ounce of practice.
“A real spiritual guide is he who by the divine power that floods from God upon him gives us an impulse due to his own example. Therefore he opens to us the door to Paradise and helps us take the first steps beyond the ineffable door of spiritual knowledge. Each genuine initiation that a spiritual guide grants for us means a miraculous beginning that can urge us to a new and flat superiour level of spiritual evolution, which may incredibly transform our general perspective upon reality. It is always up to the aspirant who becomes initiated to evince perseverance and tenacity to keep the superiour level he had been urged to through the huge subtle beneficial energy and through the mysterious power of the example set by his own spiritual master. If the aspirant stays at the new stage he had been propelled to, this always shows that the initiation has been successful.”– Gregorian Bivolaru, Wise advice for those who embraced the way of the divine good
The secret doors of the astral heavens are open to thousands of people
“Since the very first stages of the technique I felt quite an easy access to the astral parallel realms. It seemed to be a whole miraculous kaleidoscope of realms and beauties spinning in front of me and all I had to do was open my inner being in order to meet them. It was some sort of fascinating gradual sliding to new spaces, realms, dimensions. These realities would seem utterly profuse to me, full of unutterable beauty.” (E.D.)
“I started to feel the first manifestations of the state of trance since the preliminaries, when I experienced some enhanced states that propelled me into some astral parallel worlds. I could perceive some images that featured the states I could feel deeper and deeper. That was quite a vivid and plain state, peculiar to my way of being. Then during the next stages, as Grieg was describing what was going on during such stages, I could even recognize his sheer description the way I started to see the emergence of some realms. For instance, there first appeared a view with a mountain lake and high mountains, and I was being led there by a state of particular peace, a need of depth, of purity. First there would emerge the state and then the astral projection in the subtle world corresponding to the state I lived. Then there also appeared other images, I was urged into other worlds relied to the emotions I could feel, such as love and which I could somehow retrieve in those worlds, enlivened in vivid extraordinary colours. All the shapes and moves in those realms exceeded the ordinary imagination, the way we normally try to figure out, not to say the way we live things in this physical world. Everything was amazing, in terms of movement, shape, way of unfolding. At a moment there was some sort of dance in a field where movements were greatly unexpected. I didn’t imagine those moves, they would unfold in those plans accordingly to what I was experiencing.” (D. F.)
Access to parallel worlds can take different ways
What is basically specific to the beneficial state of trance is the possibility to experience simultaneously the common state of consciousness and the existence into the astral universe. Gradually this astral experience becomes prevalent and the physical perception goes into subsidiary. The gradual translation into the astral universe is the essential mysterious aspect proper to the induction of a beneficial state of trance. In practicing the special method of induction of the beneficial states of trance, there always occur resonances to the elevated astral realms.
„I felt a strong activation of BRAHMARANDRA, AJNA CHAKRA and ANAHATA CHAKRA simultaneously and then I could feel a projection at the level of the subtle centre of power ANAHATA CHAKRA. This projection was a perception of my being extended into tactile, affective contact, as if I was gradually touching the subtle dimension. Together with this touching, I could feel a huge space opening; it felt as if I could feel it with my heart and I could see at the beginning a growing white, light then I noticed quite a complex structure, sort of net made up of enormous coloured hexagons and then lots of images started to unfold on this background. I don’t know exactly their meaning, but I could see they were quite old symbols; I had the feeling I was looking back into the humankind history. Then this projection into the subtle field remained like a frame of mind, which I became aware of as if looking with my eyes I couldn’t see anything but I had the feeling that I was anchored, extended in another dimension, which is more than the physical space.“ (F. C.)
„What I liked most about this technique was that when I came back to my senses I could see not with my physical eyes, but in subtle dimension that each of us was accompanied by his guardian angel and all these angels were so happy for us! Also I could feel the presence of so many angels and I could feel Grieg projected in this hall. In this subtle dimension where angels were manifesting, there was great joy. All those subtle beings were happy for what we got there. For a few bits of seconds I could hear their voices which were quite mild and beautiful.” (I. D.)
Miraculous transfiguration of perceptions
During the states of trance physical perceptions become subsidiary, but the consciousness contact to the physical dimension must not vanish for good. The fairy reality of the astral realms that is experienced by the subtle astral body also changes the physical perception. To a being experiencing beneficial states of trance who takes a walk in the nature, for instance, everything appears completely transformed as if by magic. The landscapes, things, beings, everything appears as imbued with some mysterious fascinating spell, casting a mysterious charming light. Everything seems original, amazing, mysterious and delicious.
“I went alone by the river of Cerna, on a special spot. I could feel there a state of quiet, of inner silence, of deep inner peace which made me feel myself again. I had previously experienced these states of silence, inner peace, but this time it was exceptional. Being in the open air I felt at a moment that I was fusing to nature, and my being was expanded to the extent that I couldn’t say the emergence of my being and nature. I laid down on my blanket, on the stones on the banks of he river, looking up to the sky. When I looked back to the forest, I could feel my own extension to the nature, and nature as part of me. That was quite an exceptional feeling… at a moment I could feel this dissolution of myself into the nature was absorbed in SAHASRARA and I became the witness of this feeling, quite a lucid witness. I was living a state of deep happiness, at the same time quiet and extraordinary delicious state.” (C. B.)
“During the fructification stage, I experienced extraordinary profuse emotions, which was quite unexpected. First of all when I went out of the hall I was nicely surprised at everything shining around in a special glow. Generally I felt that beyond what I could see in the physical world there existed plenty of worlds. Looking at each leave, each flower, I could feel that beyond it there laid huge richness and nature is highly alive. By such perspective upon nature I felt that I got richer myself by means of the beauty it shed. I even felt a wonderful state of enhancement of the state of SHAKTI through communion to nature; I felt that all this feminine beauty of nature also exists inside of me and all my feminine features are mirrored in nature.” (A. G.)
“As I was outdoors, lying down on the grass, looking up to the sky I noticed a great enhancement of the ability to see those phenomena proper to the etheric dimension. Those floating sparkles peculiar to the etheric dimension became quite clear to me.” (F. C.)
“There is something that fascinates me about the states of beneficial romantic trance that I experience, which is the magic of the moment lived in plenty. By simply looking at the dance of the leaves in the wind blowing, I can live states of ecstasy, feel that that moment has everything inside of it and the whole Universe is mirrored in that tree. By simply looking in the eyes of my lover I can feel his soul and recognize the archetypal energy which supports everything. The state of beneficial romantic trance urges me to deeply and intensely feel the presence of God in everything and my existence there becomes our lovemaking.”(C. C.)
For all those who have been initiated at Herculane, their experiences certainly mean a prospective beginning. Many of them are now determined to continue and explore the fantastic potential of this initiation. “From now on I am going to deliver myself more bravely in this whirl of love that gives sublime shadows to my life!” (F.F)
The most valuable gift granted by the secret initiation in the induction of the beneficial states of trance for the yogis is the possibility of deliberate self-induction of superior, extraordinary states of consciousness.
This enables us to discover in full delight both the miraculous richness of the soul and the beneficial infinite potentialities of our being. In this wide and mysterious universe where we deepen in ecstasy we rediscover the spell of love and the overwhelming beauty of romanticism. Besides, we may explore quite easily different hues, sides and aspects of love and lovemaking. Then we may have the intuition of the fact that the romanticism is going to become very “trendy” in the future and we will relish it without restraint.
The intoxicating charm of love
When we are in the state of romantic state, all our emotions, sensations, perceptions are much more intense and touching. Love will impress us much more thanks to our refined superior receptivity which is highly enhanced in the beneficial states of trance. Our open-heartedness makes us more responsive to the divine love and this will help us surrender without limitations to its embrace. Then the undivided connection between love and romanticism, between the state of infatuation and the elevated states of consciousness turns natural and goes without saying.
“Right after the initiation in the induction of the state of romantic trance I went uphill on the plateau for the yang spiral scheduled in the camp program at Herculane. Everything around me appeared now quite enlivened, new and magic. The most fascinating thing was, however, the way I could feel myself. I felt like a new born, all conditionings, prejudices, fears, had simply vanished away. I was feeling released. I was discovering a new endless space inside where I was expanding ceaselessly. I was focused in my heart and my heart was alive. Everything was simplified, going in a natural harmonious way. I was surprised at the purity I could discover inside and the happiness that was drifting me slightly above the earth.
That was such a full day! But the moments that stay most alive in my mind is the meditation after the spiral. The meditation topic was “The superior state of ecstatic trance that reveals the existence of the Divine Void of Blissfulness”. I was together with the one who was going to become my lover; he had been next to me in the spiral. I had a quite intense state of aspiration towards God, which I could feel was triggered by our encounter. I had the meditation in his arms. I felt embraced by the blissful void. I emerged completely in that state that revealed another dimension of existence. Then it started to rain. It rained like crazy, as if the heavens had broken. It was raining and each raindrop touching my body got me aware that I was living and I was not living in this world at the same time. In a few minutes I was soaked but this didn’t disturb not even for a second the profound state of meditation I was emerged in. That intense and great moment is something that I could hardly put into words. God was mysteriously revealing to me then and this great mystery of His presence can only be lived.”
Thanks to the beneficial state of trance we can live like gods
Naturally, the continence lovemaking with transfiguration acquires new exceptional features when both lovers are in romantic trance. We may say that sexual continence becomes three times more efficient, which means that both the states we experience and the transmutation and sublimation phenomena are three times more intense. Also, the effects that result from continence lovemaking are three times stronger. To make sure of these you must have courage and experience for yourselves. Here are the statements of people who had the courage to do it.
“The state of beneficial trance enabled the access to some extraordinary and unusual emotions which I had never imagined. It is enough for me to focus in a certain direction or on a certain aspect and I can already get access to some realms, emotions and even beings proper to those resonances. For instance, as I was making love to my lover in a pose that activates MANIPURA CHAKRA I started to see similar Tibetan representations. I saw myself surrounded by purple flames and I could literally feel that this caused some sublimation and alchemy processes, highly refined and intense, which not only implied sexual energies but also the psychic substratum. That was not only a vision in itself, but an effective, touchable emotion, where I could feel the blaze of fire by all senses, even with my ears. I was so deeply identified to some archetypal, female personifications that I was feeling like another being, exceptional, I even had another countenance and a different way to live lovemaking. I felt that I had almost completely translated in an astral paradise, proper to the Tibetan resonances. Long after, there prevailed a certain mystical resonance, particularly Tibetan, together with a state of nostalgia, of longing.” (C. D.)
Even when only one of the two lovers is in a state of romantic trance, the differences are obvious to both of them. “I was making love to my girl-friend as she was in a state of romantic trance, I noticed she had a completely different way to manifest and her states were completely different then the way she had been making love before. She was so fascinating then, so spontaneous, loving, and mysterious that I was completely fascinated and I felt that I was falling again in love for her, with that intensity of feeling that existed in the beginning of our relationship.” (I. U.)
The state of trance helps overcoming the blockages
For people who still face issues and blockages, the secret technique of gradual induction of the beneficial states of trance will prove to be a miraculous and valuable tool in this respect. All conditionings, limitations, frustrations, stresses, are so attenuated during the beneficial states of trance that it is very easy to go beyond and experience a natural, free and uninhibited condition. Moreover, during the states of trance we can induce ourselves new beneficial habits and the positive effects can be very easily preserved when we come out of the state of trance. It all depends on our options and intentions.
“The state of beneficial romantic trance helped me to remove in a miraculous way a series of inhibitions and hindrances in affective and erotic levels. I discovered unimagined resources and resorts inside, which make me manifest in a spontaneous, consonant way, as I always wanted to be. The most important thing was that I felt the enthusiasm and openness to plenary manifest without limitations my love and sexual attraction.” (E. D.)
“Since the preparing stages of the secret initiating technique in the induction of the states of beneficial trance, I experienced a profound state which granted a conspicuous state of harmony that delighted and fascinated me. Against the background of this state of harmony I had the feeling that I discovered all the fantastic potentialities of my body in a new, amazing way. For instance, the fact that my body enabled in a certain way my access to states of ecstasy through lovemaking appeared as a wonderful, mysterious and amazing thing to me. The certitude of this possibility and the wonderful promise of such ecstasy made me remain all along the state of trance in a delicious state with a deeply erotic feature. Thanks to its conspicuous affective aspect, this state was extremely elevated and delicious. The amazing thing to me was the intuition of the fact that this extraordinary state was mainly possible through removal of some tensions and inner blocks which partially occurred through profound relaxation but also through resonance to certain energies proper to the astral realms.” (A. R.)
“It was highly significant for me that after performing this extraordinary technique, I started to admit openly to myself that I am in great need of love. This may seem ordinary to some people, but to me this was quite an important opening. Not only am I in need of love but I also want to be loved and appreciated, things that I couldn’t even think of, before.” (S. P.)
The fascination of romantic love in another dimension
In love, nobody can ever have enough. Lovers never get bored with the one they love, with love or with their love emotions. But even when we are deeply in love, it is worth to dare for new feelings, sensations and perspectives. In this respect the state of romantic trance will bring richer love relationships, even if they are already happy and satisfying. For those who meet problems or are going through a time of dullness in their love relationships, the states of romantic trance can restore the charm and the fascination of love and can help the two lovers rediscover each other in a new and magic light.
„With the first exemplification of the state of romantic trance, at Herculane, I experienced such unusual feelings that I certainly know they are inspired by some beings that literally lived in romantic times and it cannot be all my imagination. It was quite unusual that these astral projections I had made me perceive the lifestyle of men that had lived exemplary romantic lives (who lived in those romantic times).
That was quite surprising and delicious to me, as a woman. I was strolling in the open air, contemplating nature in a detached approach and I wasn’t focused on it, but rather on my general state as I started to feel fascinated with the state of feminity and with women generally. I was literally hoping with a lover’s effervescence that somewhere in nature, among trees, in some drops, there laid the beloved woman, that I frantically aspire to contemplate and adore.
That identification to a certain male person living in romantic times was enhanced and became obvious. I was experiencing then a state of fascination and adoration for women and for the ecstatic potential of a relationship of romantic love, even platonic. Wherever I looked around, I had the feeling that there is such a sensual and loving woman who by her simple existence grants the infinite ecstasy to me. Moreover, I realized that my lover was quite romantic, indeed and those feeling must have been inspired by his way of feeling, which I couldn’t really appreciate before as I couldn’t even imagine at all.” (A. N.)
Released from the ordinary daily life
In our daily life, the beneficial states of trance may represent a buoy-life that helps us evade common, daily trifles, the pettiness and the small concerns or even the “important issues” we face. Do not hesitate to call for the states of beneficial trance as for a door out and a way to release from the daily dullness and the manipulating duties that invade your life.
“When I came back from Herculane I was immediately tied up with everyday issues. The idea to practice the special method of induction of the beneficial states of trance came hard to me as I thought that I was so busy and that would upset my entire schedule and I might not catch up with it after that. I put myself together to perform this technique as I became very tired and weary and I felt like evading the ordinary concerns and frames of mind. I was highly impressed at the state of liberty that this state of trance granted. The sudden modification of perspective as I lifted above the daily problems helped me realise that I have much a wider range of options than I had thought. Naturally I realised that both the couple relationship and the spiritual practice are much more important than the other activities and that ordinarily I was living some daily hallucination. The fact that I know now that I dispose of a simple method and every moment I am just two hours away (as it takes for the preliminaries) from the state of freedom and happiness that the beneficial state of trance can grant, this makes much more confident and detached.” (R. B.)
Transfiguration of the beloved one
In the magic light of the astral resonances stirred by the states of trance, the beloved ones appear completely transfigured. The magic of transfiguration will fully operate on our lives and relationships and will enrich them with new, wonderful shades.
”I was making love with my girl-friend, as we both were in a state of romantic trance, I noticed a great richness of lovemaking, but the most of it was the state of mutual transfiguration. My girl-friend is very beautiful, sensual, feminine and delicate but then she seemed thousand times more beautiful and sensual. I could feel that by her agency I could reach all heavens. Then, I could also feel a transfigurating attitude from her also, which made me feel like a god, extremely powerful, able to offer her the entire sexual ecstasy that she fully deserves, for sure. I could feel positively that this wonderful transfiguration for each other was due to the elevated resonances induced by the state of romantic trance. The contribution of the state of trance is unutterable, but all I can say is that all extraordinary tantric achievements (the glorious androgynous state, the experience of the multiple orgasm states, etc.) seemed easily possible then, thanks to the frantic love and to perfect sexual continence.” (D. T.)
“I was contemplating the face of my lover that I know so well as since always and that is so dear to me… then I felt an urge to touch his soul, to move him by a simple glance, which seemed to become all of a sudden the most stirring and erotic way of manifestation. Beyond the familiar features, I could perceive an amazing richness of new, unknown things. There was an extraordinary force, but also a lot of inner warmth. I felt that I learn again to look at him, as I considered him from that state of romantic trance I also learned again how to appreciate him and love him. Each detail on his face appeared full of meaning as an expression of a wonderful feature of his personality or of certain events that marked him and transformed him into the wonderful man he is now. I realized that this way of relating to him in beauty and romanticism transformed my soul and provided vital nourishment for his soul.” (M. M.)
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Taken from yogaesoteric.net